Lipstick Time

Elaine, Me, Mom. May, 1984. Speeding at a Standstill A few weeks ago, I left on a Thursday evening to meet my daughter. On my way out the door, I slipped a lipstick into my purse. She’d left the tube of Viva Glam in my car the last time I’d seen her and I had […]


Another Airport. Another Homecoming.

Daphne Kate Matoushek. September 4, 2012. Meeting Skin-to-Skin Finally, after 51 days of waiting, tonight’s the night. My daughter, Elaine, our almost-two-year-old grandson, Sawyer, and brand new, as yet unseen granddaughter, Daphne, are due in on a late flight from Honolulu to San Diego. Rich and I will head south after work, claim a long-reserved […]


On The Things We Keep

Baby Clothes, Ridiculous Flowers, A Bassinet Skirt. And The Things We Give“I must be flunking Grandma,” I tell my daughter on the phone.  “Oh, I doubt that!” She laughs, music, and I hear joy and fatigue in her voice, stretched as she’s been to play her role in a brand new miracle. “Because,” I continued, […]


Bears, Mamas, and Mama Bears

It Was February. Bears Hibernate in February.  Love, Claws, and Flying Children “We were tent camping in Yosemite,” Amy told us, sharing a great story in her inimitable style. “And I woke up in the middle of the night to this shuffling sound, along with this snuffling sound, and I knew–I just KNEW–that a bear […]


I’m Feasting on Pickles While I Wait for a Baby!

Corn, Hot Roast Beef Sandwich, Pinot, and PICKLES! Green Olives and the Baby Jesus Confession: I love pickles. Dills, bread-and-butters, sweet baby gherkins, cherry peppers–I’ve seldom met a pickle that I didn’t adore. Ditto their relatives, the olives. As a child, I often cleaned out the relish plate at the end of holiday meals, mounting one […]